....

2009-09-23T02:02:00.001+08:00

Hitting cement walls
Filled with secret contempt.
The failure of another
Reeks sweat, habitually
Estranged to the necessity
Of a new disease.

Formulate alone,
Kill the zones of ritual
Peace.
The smile of an unwanted
Shrieks claw-like wails;
Syringed with faithless
Stupidity.

Close are destitute
Infidels.
Shimmering fire
Dances to life--
Crack.
Spilt.
Snap back,
Bloods rush forth.

Murder disappoints the
Unplanned massacre;
Safety lies empty,
False content gnaws through.
Devour the fury,
Engulf the hate askew.

2009-09-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

help.....

help me....

2009-07-20T00:45:00.001+08:00

Have u ever......been so sad and helpless?

That you've tried stopping your own heartbeat before?

2009-07-01T22:09:00.001+08:00

a 15-min interval 97 pushups

2009-06-29T02:02:00.001+08:00

50 push-ups

and going

2009-06-28T14:24:00.000+08:00

Browsing thru this blog is

Reminiscing my past

its painful....

2009-06-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

I'm drunk....

Drowned in all those thoughts i once had,

Desires i onced craved for, shall be gone forever like dust.

Drunk.....no sorta remedy or a spell,

I'm just mesmerized by your beauty.
You, made me speechless.

When i choose to forget, i live again..
Death is a Start of a New Life
and

A New Love.

2009-06-14T02:41:00.001+08:00

To all dear human survivors....

Don't you agree this world is a world to hate?

2009-06-14T02:33:00.002+08:00

have you ever tried being so pissed off and irritated by a person that you cry.stupid golden flower.the problem does not lies with din the problem lies with you.people alr try to make friend with you but you are the one who keeps talking crap that turns ppl off.you seriously asked for it.you are just assuming things your way.putting words into other people's mouth when they don't mean it,you are the one who wants it like that.you see the world like omgwtfbbqchicken the sky is falling when there's a rainbow across the sky.pessimist.making things worse when my friend is trying her very best to salvage it.yes yes we keep telling her don't talk to you anymore but too bad for us she's too kind.always say she's bad and evil and all those shit when you have never give a thought what is it that you have done to cause people to react that way.continue living in your own dramtic world where the sky falls almost everyday.trust totally that 2012 will be the end of the world,if not earlier!

your friend has so much to say bout me April 28, 2009 3:21 PM...Fucking helium...see what happens when i ignite her on fire

Your whole ideology is stupid, i dun get it....
Thats fucking all rubbish..
It was a good idea that u removed your tagboard ...HAHAHAHAHAH

Hah! I was thinking i just recovered , but its restarting again...my head is spinning again,...

I know what i've to do now....

To my dear friend,
Crush it then, you won't wanna have any curse on you...

hey..wait, who am i talking to?

2009-06-14T01:57:00.001+08:00

what do you know about life, pathetic....

2009-06-14T01:56:00.001+08:00

those happy people won't understand.

2009-06-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

sumtimes i may juz drop by here and start talking to myself...

Recently,

I've watched L in KIRA-Action.
Its Kenichi Matsuyama starring in 銭ｹﾞﾊﾞ (Money Crazy)

He was the cute and mysterious guy from Death Note right???

But now he stars as a antagonist in this drama.

He's someone that has been dwelling in his painful past, his Mom passed away because she can't get funds to treat her illness, and throughout his life he experienced unhappiness, and slowly realizing the unfairness of the world caused by money.
When he grew up he finally understood that all people want is money, thus he started to use money as a tool, motivation towards success, and want to beat money, remembering that the person he once loved so much lost to money...

But somehow something vile stirs within him....Those memories he once had, turned himself into a distorted image, he's been shaped by the roughness and cruelty of the society.
And so, he manipulates the people using money, and he wants revenge from those wealthy people, whom he thought they were the spoiled one....

aargh..damnit...to be continued...

But this battle isn't against money, it's against his contaminated heart.

Money??? お金？
Hmm..Let's say I have a billion dollars. I really do.

and....i wanna give it to you...

How much are u gonna risk it...U got the money, and maybe turn wealthy but within you, you are still someone that has been living in poverty..

U take it , having ur pride stripped and because you are desperate...that turns u into sum sorta craze over this money that can perhaps save your life...

I don't mean anything however its a natural response from sumone who never have a chance to grasp on notes and sniff on the aroma.

But I'm gonna say take the billion dollars in exchange for your life.

It's worth it, even to a poverty person..

so...don't let it take control over you. Tho , juz a little bit /enough money can fulfil a person's satisfactory. Being rich is a sense of accomplishment, however if u want more...u shoot high above your goals...You put other things aside, you start from desire, then you thirst, then you drool all over it, money. You'll buy everything, the one-way ticket...to hell.

2009-05-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

if only people can understand the wall between them....

I say:

sleep
22:53:49
I say:

it'll be a morning tomorrow
22:54:12('.')GERALDINE . says:
yeaO_O

22:54:20
I say:
why

22:54:55

I say:
if u realised the beauty of the words ...

22:55:37

I say:

it would be nothing more than art
22:56:30('.')GERALDINE. says:

okayy

Good morning is merely just words,

Words flowing with love greeting the brand new day ,

sun beaming tenderly on you

The warmth that can't be forgotten

Its the day you'll live to breathe again...

2009-04-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

I had this "conversation" a while ago...

(12:39 AM) Ask yourselves w:
do u think the world's gone bonkers?
(12:41 AM) GERALDINE .:
erm... no, why?
(12:41 AM) Ask yourselves w:
You don't feel the world dying?!
(12:42 AM) GERALDINE .:
Well, i guess so...
(12:42 AM) Ask yourselves w:
oh , u agree?
(12:43 AM) Ask yourselves w:
what do u think?
(12:44 AM) Ask yourselves w:
I'f i weren't to live in reality it would be better
(12:44 AM) GERALDINE .:
lol
(12:44 AM) Ask yourselves w:
why?
(12:44 AM) GERALDINE .:
Well, but we still have to accept reality
(12:45 AM) Ask yourselves w:
I wanna escape from this World
(12:45 AM) GERALDINE .:
why
(12:45 AM) Ask yourselves w:
Cuz I don't find anything nice about humans
(12:45 AM) GERALDINE .:
i see..=.=
(12:45 AM) Ask yourselves w:
?
(12:46 AM) GERALDINE .:
but if you look in another way,the world will still be better
(12:46 AM) Ask yourselves w:
There maybe times i feel better,but, it would not change anything...
If i look it the other way round, it wouldn't be reality anymore
(12:47 AM)
('.')GERALDINE . has changed his/her status to Idle
(12:51 AM) GERALDINE .:
ok i dont know what to say for now. lol.
(12:52 AM) Ask yourselves w:
then i'll live for an answer
(1:00 AM) Ask yourselves w:
would u ever ask "Why"s being a Christian ?!
(1:01 AM) GERALDINE .:
yea, when I was still a young christian
(1:01 AM) Ask yourselves w:
U truly believe him now..
(1:02 AM) Ask yourselves w:
but I somehow think that people doesn't seem to realise the power of believing
(1:02 AM) GERALDINE .:
yes, what you mean?
(1:03 AM) Ask yourselves w:
I don't know why ppl believe in God then
(1:03 AM) Ask yourselves w:
but they Believe so it's not reality
(1:04 AM) Ask yourselves w:
maybe ppl who believe Him are living their own worlds? who noes..maybe u are too
(1:05 AM) GERALDINE .:
if you had an encounter with God,
you'll believe,
cause its true and you're not be living in your own world
(1:05 AM) Ask yourselves w:
u mean u've seen God?
(1:05 AM) GERALDINE .:
I'm sure bout' it and i truly believe
(1:06 AM) Ask yourselves w:
but have you seen him at the first place?
(1:06 AM) Ask yourselves w:
Do u noe whats Follow the Flow ?
(1:06 AM) Ask yourselves w:
Monkey-see monkey-do?
(1:06 AM) GERALDINE .:
and i'm not following the flow either
(1:06 AM) Ask yourselves w:
Humans are like that naturally, I guess
(1:07 AM) Ask yourselves w:
maybe some people follow their hearts,
and others find the truth but just choose to believe
(1:07 AM) Ask yourselves w:
In the end they won't understand anything
In the end they won't understand anything- only their beliefs
(1:07 AM)
('.')GERALDINE . has changed his/her status to Idle
(1:08 AM)
('.')GERALDINE . has changed his/her status to Online
(1:09 AM) GERALDINE .:
well its not just believing, its happening too
(1:09 AM) Ask yourselves w:
happen ?
(1:10 AM) GERALDINE .:
nvm ttynt(talk to ya nex tym) bye
(1:10 AM) Ask yourselves w:
..?=.= bye

Stop, and
Ask yourselves why....
Does Belief really....gives you the answer?

But, words ended off like that without an answer...
So, what's happening ?
In this world dying,
Crimes
Injustice
Disasters
Death

People can't learn from their mistakes
Same for me...

I, too, believe everyone has a soul,
Its only whether you're listening deep within your heart
Ask yourselves...what you're living for
Money? Fame? Success?
Live it once, and it's all over
in an blink of an eye

Those questions in you,
You don't get ordinary people answering that for you right?
Ideology in Human Beings
Doesn't seem to die out

and that's what I'll live for...searching for the truth..

Is it with me?
Maybe im too childish to have these thoughts...

2009-03-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

I exchange thoughts with the clouds

I hold my breath

Ahh, it's just hard shell you can't see

Is that where the bottom is?

The shadow burns me

Ahh, I just want to keep forgetting

Slip your desires into the ants' nest

Come now, all you have to do now is be reborn again

Let tomorrow sleep and peacefulness will turn to you

Free yourself and go with your razor sharp emotions

Even the twisted flow is the proof that you're alive

I invite the tearfully-indulging sorrow

The inculated Dogra Magra

The pain of the mark and the one and only personality

And those colorful eyes all decorated I don't want them anymore

Is hypocrisy going to come and take it all away?

The lonely red stage at night

I dedicate the following to the aspiring leading actor

That's where the truth is

The small corner of my un-cheatable heart says "I still want to be here"

Who can't we forgive?
I let them hear my cold voice

And I swear

I will live with my work , I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell

I carve the sins What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?"

"I've stared at the strong shining moon long enough to be bored

Can't even turn myself into a werewolf

But just enough to become crazy by the darkness

I want to suck the neck

The emptiness of the remains

I won't let you sleep

At the age where you just want attention... tonight, I might go crazy for you"

"Everyone wants to reach out their hand and grab happiness

But they just end up becoming the monster that lies deep in darkness

The end has already come to life

It will take form at zero and will crawl back into the uterus and rot

Every time this happens, your faces crumble

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear

The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins and let life be gone

The emptiness of the antithesis

Becomes the choking and crying land

Bury the bones in the common land immersed in thesis

Be burdened by depression

The gritty tsunami takes me away and I smile with bitter tears

Couldn't understand the value of things

The hanging of the necks at the 13 stairs

Seeing people becoming friendly while clapping hands

That mixes in with sissy thoughts and hurts others

Seeing you like this, it's just too sad

Splash of blood

Squashing basic instincts

Talk about death

I will live with my work ,I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell
I carve the sins ,What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear

The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins, and let life be gone

Is it a sin for me to live because I am evil?

2009-03-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

You are psycho cause u opened my wound and juz wanna see me bleed till death..

2009-02-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

And if u lie to me that he was fake,

I will kill myself straightaway for living in such a world...

2009-02-17T22:58:00.001+08:00

I'm dying ......

I have one last and final request to love you , till i die...

I'm dying...

Everythin is fading so fast...

LOVE

2009-02-17T17:15:00.003+08:00

Girl

If u can know how i feel....

I Love You

2009-02-16T23:01:00.001+08:00

Gib both of us a wonderful world =.-

I wish i can believe in myself....

and....hey! Was that ur first time saying that to me ???? x))

2009-02-15T22:54:00.001+08:00

You are so sweet....that I can't lie to myself that I don't Love you...

; )

2009-02-14T23:14:00.001+08:00

tell me..was it ur firs time gettin' a rose? x)))

HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL~~<3<3

JYs FOR COMMON TEST!!!! AARGH 0_0

._.

2009-02-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

ok...maybe i understand... ; )

2009-02-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

I'm so weak, i dont want the devils to take me away again...

Just for you, I've been fighting hard to stay alive....

Praying that things would juz go out as it's supposed to be...

Why..?
Why ...?
Why is this still called love?

When im being abandoned...

Acting unchanged...

Putting up fake smiles...

Being emotionless,
like puppets...

My heart isn't broken,

its gone......

I'm already long forgotten....

2009-02-09T23:12:00.004+08:00

I just wanted you to care bout me a little more...

and you're giving up already...

I didn't even blame you...

If you'd just tell me , you're willing to change me..
Into a better person..

I would have listened....it would be a 100% YES from me..

I cross my heart.

I agree...it seems very hopeless now..

Are u really treating me like a real friend?...this is what i get..

"disappointment? i guess i shouldn't be bothered with you in the first place. i should have listen to advices telling me not to care. i did treat you as my friend and if that's what you really think, so be it. there's nothing else to say, it's hopeless already and i give up."

I never gave up on friends ever in my life...

I would never give up on you...ever

This human instinct is still here..

Although I am no longer who i was used to be right now...

Depressed...

2009-02-08T21:39:00.002+08:00

I exchange thoughts with the clouds
I hold my breath

Ahh, it's just hard shell you can't see
Is that where the bottom is?

The shadow burns me

Ahh, I just want to keep forgetting

Slip your desires into the ants' nest

Come now, all you have to do now is be reborn again

Let tomorrow sleep and peacefulness will turn to you

Free yourself and go with your razor sharp emotions

Even the twisted flow is the proof that you're alive

I invite the tearfully-indulging sorrow

The inculated Dogra Magra

The pain of the mark and the one and only personality

And those colorful eyes all decorated I don't want them anymore

Is hypocrisy going to come and take it all away?

The lonely red stage at night

I dedicate the following to the aspiring leading actor

That's where the truth is The small corner of my un-cheatable heart says

"I still want to be here" Who can't we forgive?

I let them hear my cold voice And I swearI will live with my work I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell

I carve the sins What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?

"I've stared at the strong shining moon long enough to be bored
Can't even turn myself into a werewolf
But just enough to become crazy by the darkness
I want to suck the neck
The emptiness of the remains
I won't let you sleep
At the age where you just want attention... tonight, I might go crazy for you"

Everyone wants to reach out their hand and grab happiness

But they just end up becoming the monster that lies deep in darkness

The end has already come to life

It will take form at zero and will crawl back into the uterus and rot

Every time this happens, your faces crumble

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear

The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins and let life be gone

The emptiness of the antithesis

Becomes the choking and crying land

Bury the bones in the common land immersed in thesis

Be burdened by depression

The gritty tsunami takes me away and I smile with bitter tears

Couldn't understand the value of things

The hanging of the necks at the 13 stairs

Seeing people becoming friendly while clapping hands

That mixes in with sissy thoughts and hurts others

Seeing you like this, it's just too sad

Splash of blood
Squashing basic instincts

Talk about death I will live with my work I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell

I carve the sins
What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear

The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins, and let life be gone

Is it a sin for me to live because I am evil?

2009-02-08T21:31:00.001+08:00

I have fun listening to your lies...

I shout out joy and you shout for help

Fuck! I hate you! Dear God.
You're a MOTHERFUCKER Death for All

I'm your worst nightmare

Fuck off I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend I
don't even think of you as my friend

You deceived me and sold me out

Take off that mask of rectitude!

Pretender that hurts one's eyes voice that jars on one's ear

Fuck 'em all without a care

Fake rock wannabes...just die I don't even think of you as my friend
I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze it's so cold I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

By tomorrow I'll be in despair

It was destined I have fun listening to your lies... I shout out joy and you shout for help

Fuck! I hate you! Dear God. You're a MOTHERFUCKER Death for All

- Death for All I'm your worst nightmare

Fuck off I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend
I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze it's so cold

I'll die in a world of lies and deceits
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

2009-02-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

WHY IS MY WORLD LIKE THAT?
PEOPLE THAT I KNOW. .
ALL

SOULESS

HEARTLESS

MEANINGLESS

JUZ FACTS IN THIS HELL THAT WE'RE LIVING IN , DEAR GOD HELP US , WE ARE ALL YOUR CHILDREN .

2009-01-31T23:35:00.002+08:00

this girl don't bother bout me anymore. Can't talk, can't do anything,
She wasn't her i used to know. Why do u have to be so cold.

People i know are juz hiding behind their masks
Including myself..
Can everybody stop acting

why are friends so hard to understand..

2009-01-31T00:36:00.000+08:00

I wake up with complicating melodies ringing in my head every morning.

2009-01-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

The Dying Heart...

谢谢你给我你拿走的一切

2009-01-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

Love really makes me go crazy.

real crazy

2009-01-26T00:46:00.002+08:00

Lord, I am drifting apart from you
The Minister’s lying is tearing my ears apart
The roaring lions are smiling
The bible is decaying from the lack of attention
I believe in you, without any doubt I believe in you
Through Your name, we’re building a castle greater than the tower of Babel
They’re killing you
The war-trodden boots are cleaned by the holy water
We’re forgetting it all; paying no tax for the government is acquittal from the sin
We pay tithing to the government
The national flag flows through the wind powerfully while the cross withers weakly
The evil forces die away from the gravity

We’re responsible for the sins, when we’re hungry; we chew on the fruit of knowledge
We’re setting fire to the naked forest
This is how much we’re screaming for you
Almighty Lord, where are you?
Is it all a lie that You are Almighty?
Is it all a lie that you are going to rescue us with all your will?
Why did you make us stand when you make us kneel down?
What’s the use of walking when we’re going to be buried under the ground?
With our two hands, the sins go through you
Our dialog is like an open window, please tell us again
When we repent for your forgiveness, we have to wear cold handcuffs

What is the prayer? There is always no answer
Today, I hate you the mostHow could you pluck the last leaf of hope?
You are so almighty yet you ignore meI bet everything you have breathed on, on you
I am attracted to the lost lamb
Until the very end have I called your name
You say that my trust is the keyYou get angry, hiding behind the cloud
Today, you get hidden from the dark cloud, no matter what we say
Before I lose all my breath, even the blue sky…

Is it all a lie that You are almighty?
Is it all a lie that you are going to rescue us with all your will?

On this religious war ground, the devil’s heirlooms use the holy blood to fill the dusty tombs of God’s people
Clouding the vision like nuclear mushrooms to see who gets to put which book in our hotel rooms.
Is it the military or the Oedipus complex which kills the holy father for industrial contracts?
Just facts in this hell that we living in … dear God help us, we are all your children

Even if you say that it is too late, it doesn’t matter to meEven if you say there’s a higher meaning, I don’t need it

Is it all a lie that You are almighty?Is it all a lie that You are going to rescue us with all Your will?Is it all a lie that You are almighty?Is it all a lie that You are going to rescue us with all Your will?

2009-01-24T23:42:00.002+08:00

aa todo...kanaiii.. hana. re..te....shima-u...ke ga re nonai ya sa...shi sau ni ....na mida to remu.....ritai

zzzzzzzz.im bored.. this is juz a part of Conceived sorrow where i usually sing...=.=

CNY sux...no relatives here...nothin...nobody go out with me...hate the noisiness ...hate the people outside...so many...that can be killed..??

i guess i'll buy my own new stuffs myself?? Since theres nobody??!! lol...

2009-01-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

listening to any song of dir en grey makes KIRA come back instantly...
i will have the urge to kill...
the power of dominance...

But for now KIRA mode is still neutral. Im safe, in fact.

2009-01-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

你變更成熟了...
我只是愛討人喜歡....
但是你不愛我..

你對我冷漠..
我對你來講..是透明的..

我無所謂...
因為..我愛你..
就這麼簡單而已...

2009-01-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

IM DYING TO TALK TO U BUT I CANT....

UR TELLING ME WE DON HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY ALREADY...

2009-01-18T23:29:00.003+08:00

RAAAAAAAAAAARARARARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGAHAHARARRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HAHYYAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR

SO COLD INSIDE ME ......AAAAAAAA

2009-01-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

I NEED YOU, I CANT BREATHE!!

I ALWAYS DREAM OF YOU BUT I CANNOT FEEL YOU..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

2009-01-18T00:05:00.001+08:00

I dont care...i still believe it was all a lie, u really were a good liar

2009-01-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

Dreamt of her again.... she was next to me at class and she whacked my head... den whacked her forehead back again xD den we were both happy=)

iknow iknow its a mad dream...
It's not the real her in my dream...

2009-01-13T21:28:00.003+08:00

Why have i dreamt of you..?

My dream has its own story..

it got a hope, well, im still trying to approach her and winning her heart

but my dream got no outcomes...maybe i start talking to you already... ;/

juz look at the progress now... ; (

who noes what the outcome will b, morover dreams are still dreams...
its just a dream of hope while there isnt any...

oh whatever and i rmbed a japanese CD which i held onto...maybe it dont exist

her? oh still pretty as ever

i was sure the dream was long....i forgot much of it..

my scenarios and locations of dreams are always weird and mysterious, sometimes fantasizing

2009-01-13T17:07:00.001+08:00

今天,我終於懂得怎麼...哭了 ;)

2009-01-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

so many words to say to u, but some words juz cant b spoken out...
"i love you" meant it all....
and
i truly love you..
how i wished if there was juz this chance...

i missed talking to you,

i just dont have anymore courage...

im really sorry for loving you...

2009-01-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

i love youuuuu
~~~

2009-01-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

Kiss~

i still dont care

i'm still mad over you ..for a kiss

2009-01-07T16:45:00.002+08:00

Can't let go. . .
Juz can't

Its different this time...

2009-01-05T22:09:00.003+08:00

maybe im leading a normal life now....juz with alot of emotions and feelings.

This is my summary of dir en grey
Genre: Screamo metal rock
Makes my emotions go wild.
Uncontrollable feelings possess me.
Feels power
Inner devil gets released
Thinks like KIRA or "Pink Killer"
Killing instincts.
Toying with humans
Think they are chesspieces.
Wants every enemy dead.
Unhappiness with world. Humans
KIRA reflexes becomes good
Insecure with surroundings
No God

Epik High Genre: New Age rapping
Remaps the human soul
Feel new and refreshed.
Sometimes feel lost in midst of thoughts
Death is a start of a new life.
Makes me feel like Tablo =.-
Gives me direction
Gets me freed from Dir En grey

Well, tell u my weakness, its LOVE

2008-12-27T01:06:00.003+08:00

Just because of that, impressions on me have changed so much already.

I wasn't the nice guy i was used to be..

Well, I just..have nothing to say already.

You wanted me to get a life.

It's not easy...

You just don't understand...there's nothing already.. i cant live without anything in my life

Yea, and i once lived for you.

I have to admit, i still love you for a very long time
and i dumbly trusted you..
I know i cant be forgiven.....but

I dont care, as long as you're giving me life...

But it all ended....

why have i not been patient enough...

why have i shown the bad portrait of me that i've been hiding..

why haven't you listened to me for once...

why don't you care?

....im just, just a bad person

bad to the core...

my heart has been intoxicated by my inner devil...

I'm just not worthy to have any place in your heart.

2008-12-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaa

i dont know how to cry already .....

No matter how hard i try , no tears will shed.

how??my heart is blocked

zz. I want no more xmas

zz.I want no more presents

ever

in this life.

i dont want anything already

2008-12-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

KIRA has taken away all humanity from me

2008-12-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

Theres nth in my life already . I have nth to live for, except for a dream that sounds almost impossible to pursue..

2008-12-25T00:19:00.002+08:00

Sccary dream yesterday.

Dreamt about a cheena bitch passing by my mom and her friends?

She was stopped by Mom

She started giving an annoying annd pestered look. She was being rude and i felt offended.

I went to her and slapped her. She slapped me back . Den i gave her 3 tight slaps o.O

She wants to fight with me,

then i woke up shocked to find a hand pulling both my hands.

Tried to pulled me to the ground. Then it dissappeared. WTF

I shouted very angrily coz i didnt kill her in my dreams

end of that.

From now on , there will be a blog created for my KIRA posts.
editing in progress..

Don wanna turn this blog bloody.
I'm trying to create many blogs that describe parts of me.

2008-12-22T00:58:00.002+08:00

KIRA VS BLACKLIST NO.1

KIRA IS ON CALM MOOD

MET NO.1

LOST CONFIDENCE

LOST COOLNESS

KIRA IS ANGRY

FUMING MAD

KIRA KEPT HIS COOLNESS

KIRA GET STABBED OVER AND OVER AGAIN

KIRA IS STILL COOL

KIRA GOT A COOL GETAWAY WITH NO.1

KIRA LOST IDENTITY

KIRA IS WAITING FOR THE SIGNIFICANT MOMENT TO AVENGE...WITH BLOOD

2008-12-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

KIRA VS BLACKLIST NO.2

KIRA HATES NO.2

NO.2 HATES KIRA

NO.2 STABS KIRA

KIRA DEFEND..SUCCESS

NO.2 ATTACK..FAILED

KIRA STABS NO.2

NO.2, MOTIVES? = UNKNOWN

KIRA WANNA SEE BLOOD SHED ...

ITS...EVIL
OI U BITCH I NOE UR READING IT...NO MATTER WHAT U JUZ DIE AND GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.

2008-12-17T20:06:00.002+08:00

17TH DEC. PART 2

GUESS WHAT....I SAT THE SAME FLIGHT AS FAHRENHEIT...JUZ THAT THEY ARE FEW SEATS IN FRONT OF ME AT THE BUSINESS CLASS...O.o
anyway, i shouldnt be so high bout it coz im not even their fans..=.-

but YES.....SO LUCKY...BCOZ LAST YEAR WAS FEI GE...~~

Kept asking my mom whether i got 明星臉=.- i was very very very jealous lor...

I actually wanna take pic with them..zz i dun dare go...=.-

My sister is a fan of them ...tho

Wadever...so after that reached airport finally, so many fans waiting outside

and you noe what..=.= i walked out and they thought i was one of them O.O

Started screaming for nothing..................................................
........................................wth im juz wearing my happy face mask ...and TABLO SUIT
Ello....TABLO SUIT ...NOT FAHRENHEIT..hahahhahhaha

I wished i can have more fans then them when i grow up...

my dream~~ ~ ~~ ~

ZzzZzZzZ...I so miss Taiwan so much...i miss the cold wind that makes me sneeze...
ALL ...EVERYTHING BOUT IT....
I have to experience this sadness every year..
blah

However, its juz matter of time b4 i leave this place zz

Cheers ! To my future that awaits me...

2008-12-17T12:41:00.002+08:00

FUUUUCKK!!!!!!!PLANECRASH!! PLANECRASH!! TODAY IS THE DAY !!!!
IM GOING TO SEDUCE GAYS ISLAND !!

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
:(
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

However these 2 days spent in Taipei were great . The bad thing is i cant blog .

15TH
Went to Taipei 101 at night. Did take some pics at the woof...roof*oops
IT WAS BLOODY COLD !! BRRR...
The japanese were funny at the 1010m/min elevator to the 101th floor..Cool babe~ my eears were bursting !
Bought a 101 tee X)) After that went to meet my dear cousin at a restaurant...
Yummy restaurant =.-
Went back to cousin's place...played poker until 11 + ...lol...he performed some magic tricks....

Had some pics to upload...tho.. the film have not come out yet

16TH...fck you. last day

Went to some Ceramic Museum with friends& family...+_+ sounds so lame ~
Made our own ceramic mugs!! Mine's a toilet bowl...with a lid and poop inside the bowl..
Still waiting for the drynig process..they're malking it into a mug~hope mine wont break..
u asshole ..
Think daddy's bringing it to seduce gays island too.
Drove to 四門町after that...thought going with weicheng and 2 other friends...walao..but don have...

zzz...means very sian lor..! Wonder where that pen pal of mine went with his beloved lady=.-

Yyaypee..going四門町 means shopping !!!! ^ ^ However there's time constraint..Im fucking going to Seduce government island...

SOO....BOUGHT MY CUTE SHARK BAG I FOUND AT YAHOO AUCTION~BUT NO BLACK ;(
NT290 ooh i've seen the spiky bag at auction too!
Bought 2 well designed tee i guess...Another 1200
There was one mario and DK tee i liked very much too, i seen it b4 at auction, but dont noe why didnt buy...
AND I FINALLY GOT A SUPER SMASH BRAWL FOR WII !!!!!!!AHAHAHAHA ANOTHER 1500~

BOUGHT 蠟筆小新UNDERWEAR ..LOL
Happy face mask ??
Looks retarded with my shades
Another $390 wristband...
Wanted to buy a nice shoe and boots..but the shops were lousy..dont have my Punk style...
visited an extrordinary shop!!! ITS FULL OF ROCK AND PUNK THINGS~~ SHOES..ALL SORTA ACCESORRIES ~.~ OH YA AND THE PANTS !!!!
Its all imported from England and Japan...the nice biker boots is 8000+ lor =.- @.@ so didnt buy any shoes....T T the chained pants is 3000+ too .. ._ .
Damnit damnit how am i going to buy any nice shoes in seduce gays island!!?

I grow up earn alot of money den i buy ...Grr

Went back to cousins' house..talked until 11 pm...they have school ._ .

17th (TODAY) ...
soo.... FUCK YOU...IM AT THE AIRPORT NOW !!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
BELOVED TW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ZZ I DIDNT SEE FEI GE !!

lol...im wearing the retarded mask now...maybe ppl think im famous..wadever..most likely , a retarded terrorist guy...coz my shades are on too...

AND I MISSSS THEE LADIESS IN TAIWAN....ITS JUZ ........PRETTY GIRLZ ._ .

EVERYWHERE.......

EVERYWHERE.....AA

HOW AM I GOING TO BUY OTSUKA AI'S LOVE LETTER ALBUM!?!?!?

YOU SEE..SINGAPORE'S IMPORTS ARE LOUSY...TAKES EVEN ONE YEAR TO WAIT FOR A JAPANESE ALBUM...LOL

NVM...its just a matter of time b4 i will b back studying in Tw...

I still have a wonderful dream to achieve ......

Plane's taking off...haah maybe i will keep it on until the plane crashes and everybody dies...

Joking ...Bye bye..

2008-12-14T22:07:00.003+08:00

fuck you , im going to spend another year in Seduce Gays Island.
I don't want to leave my beloved motherland ..lamelamelamelamelame =.=

HATE IT . THE STRESS COMING BACK . GRAAARGHH
HATE THE LIFE IN SEDUCE GAYS ISLAND. LOLLLLLLLLLLLL
AND FUCKK !!!
I CANNOT LIVE PEACEFULLY AGAIN...YAARRARAHHH

IM LEAVING ON THE 17TH. CURSES. CURSES
hmm.. =.- maybe the plane will crash. !

..end of that.

I've watched 海角七號

2008-12-10T23:59:00.004+08:00

Words from the "remaining" ME..still humane enough -36°C ZONE
All i wanted was someone that can open the door and show me how wonderful everything is.
But now, i don't believe in such nonsense. Because it's impossible, and i can never be happy.
I wished i don't exist. Or shut me away from the world of emotions and love. This world don't exist.

Wished i wake up and find that its all a dream.
I juz never felt warmth, never seen a beautiful rainbow.

Words from my inner demon..deep from my heart -0°C ZONE

Let me be cold-blooded if nobody understands how life is precious.
Humans never know to Love. Give. Share. in my world

I hate humans.

HATE TO THE CORE

think im weird. Thank you.
Me,

No happiness
No Christmas
No Birthdays

But Humans,

No Hearts

pathetic.

thats why im bound by KIRA, forever

YOU ARE ALL PATHETIC CREATURES.
LET ME GET RID OF YOU ALL ONE BY ONE
IF YOU DON'T TREASURE EACH LIVING SOUL
DDIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

2008-12-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

Completed
xxxHolic Movie, Original soundtracks
Death Note Movie , Original Soundtracks..

2006 songs total..will spend alot of time working on music...

Finished watching xxxHolic Kei series
Almost same . 2 new characters. Watanuki's improved

the soundtracks are very nice... T T including the innovative eerie songs
creative new age music ....instrumentals are perfect

Shunmuki series are coming out on 2009 ..what are the OVAs? o.O

2008-12-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

New xxxHolic soundtrack updates..

Today I got very very siick after having dinner outside...felt better after puking at the carpark..
: \ after the shopping at 夜市
didnt buy much though...juz buy a NT$2100 leather jacket...only

coz my mum was darn irritating..took so long to settle the price, and im already so sick..

that adds on to my frustration

if only that bitch can shut up just for once...
i juz feel like taking all my money and spend it..to heck with all the "Future savings"

That's what they have been talking about repeatedly
That's why i really really nid some nice friends to keep me company

Especially in this time of the year..in fact, juz once every year..i get to enjoy like this ;\
wished there's someone that i can share the fun with...

2008-12-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

xxxHolic is a good anime. I really like it coz its not only a scary comedy, it's quite educational.
Really get to know the Human philosophy and few of the principals of life.
Got to know the japanese cultures, like superstitions.. festivals..

The combination of characters really make the show effects perfect.

It's however quite touching in the end...

Wonder when Watanuki and Yuuko's contract will end...im sure to watch the next
xxxHolic:Kei series...

Midsummer Night's Dream was really awesome too..

U sure do not want to miss it!

2008-12-07T16:11:00.002+08:00

had weird dreams lately ..
Today i dreamt that i was studying in 2 schools
Few days ago dreamt that satan visited me..

What is happening ?

Its getting colder and colder over here...

It's a joke that ppl have frozen to death...its kinda hilarious
But it really does happen...

Im still not happy with shopping...

Firstly, i have to go out with my damn family .
They are stupid
I can't go out often coz Dad's working .Sometimes he takes 24-hour shifts. He has to drive us..
and thats really tiring coz we travel South...North?!?!

And i have no friends here , even if i have, they're probably preparing for their exams..
There's a friend living in宜蘭, but i don't think i will go there..
Maybe, visit some of my cousins...hah

Borring... :\

I really really love beer esp. 台灣啤酒.. Asahi ? I think its almost the same..
Well im not really alcoholic. But they're nice . I've never tasted Soju or Sake.. ;P''

2008-12-06T23:41:00.005+08:00

Today,
New 海角七號電影原聲帶update..

Recent,
More Dir en grey updates
L'arc~en~ciel KISS update
Loveholic Dramatic&Cinematic update
Epik High is almost complete..

New pastime anime =.-
xxxHolic &
Code Geass

bahaha..mokona is so cute

Hey !! Juz now was 第45席金馬獎頒獎典禮
Watched on TV awhile
It's juz near my house =.-
Sadly jay chou didnt turn up ;(
Having fun in taiwan~ going singapore soon...

Had some pics..uploading...
Maybe..

2008-12-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

i only like Lee Min Woo & Eric Mun from Shinhwa ._ . but i dont really listen to shinhwa o.O

2008-12-04T16:09:00.001+08:00

new interest: praticing nunchucks : P

I'm using a soft one for practice....dont know when the metal one will be in use , it hurts tho

oh yea...singing while lying down will make ur neck tired =.=

2008-12-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

i don't know who i am right now

2008-12-02T01:04:00.001+08:00

激怒
忍了...還在忍

不要到我極限...

我狠狠的..

2008-12-01T01:21:00.001+08:00

Jewelry. Its girly, but their voices are cute

Ahyoomee-Her voice is cuter

So i like Sugar more...-.-

what a lame post

2008-12-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

lost the coolness...

2008-11-29T00:05:00.001+08:00

the game wont be over............

2008-11-28T15:01:00.000+08:00

almost completed my Epik High music collection...

2008-11-25T00:01:00.001+08:00

100% confirmation.

2008-11-22T23:19:00.003+08:00

WTH !!!!!!!?? @.@
ERIC MUN IS SHINHWA'S.................

Leader...........................O_O

@.@ o.O OMG..............

2008-11-19T15:23:00.001+08:00

formidable opponent..eh?

2008-11-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

being alone is better...maybe..

2008-11-16T02:21:00.000+08:00

some things just don't have any answers.

2008-11-15T23:38:00.001+08:00

hidden intentions....

2008-11-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

如果有人能夠
對我好一點...

2008-11-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

feel so alone ;)

2008-11-14T13:02:00.002+08:00

I'm sry too, for troubling you. Thx 4 being such a nice friend ._.

2008-11-13T13:45:00.001+08:00

that feeling is ....happy> sad !!!! ;D
i did not die....instead, i found new life

2008-11-12T17:26:00.001+08:00

Confess=Live
Don't confess=Bleeding to death
Rejected=Instant death

2008-11-12T17:15:00.001+08:00

Broken promises ...

2008-10-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

YOU SEE???

...sth tell me i should get out

2008-10-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

You see...

there is juz people...with no hearts.

noooooo

2008-10-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

Love?

Oh..everythings going fine until now ?

When my headache comes again?

I'm thinking too much, again

Hahahah i think sth's up with her?!?

It's like , done so much for her? But actually get nothing back ...HAHAHAHAHA

Its like that all the time

She dont really care

So maybe? i got a few reasons to leave..

Seriously pissed off by this guy.

that stabbed me, and i havent get even with him

die............................all my enemies

2008-10-19T02:31:00.002+08:00

Daily clues on my new ♥

I love her hair

Her smile is cute

Sometimes when i miss her,

my heart goes throbbing like hell

I wanna write a song for her

currently writing the lyrics =.="

I wanna sing for her

Plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls.......

sing for me,,,,,xD

Sometimes i juz keep looking at her and she juz dont notice it.

I would like to hear your voice

This girl is very special to me

And i wish i got more time to spend with her...;(

2008-10-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

Like a true friend in need,
a deadly enemy too.

Thats what i wanna say

2008-10-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

she sux !

Idiot !

How can i ever love you !!!GRRRRRRR

NEVER

coz, I DONT LIKE YOU!

Youre very ugly

Not cute! Not cute not cute not cute AT ALL!!!

Do i even Know YOU !!?!??!NOOOO

WHOAREyou ,ass

#!@$$%#%%^^%^U%^&^%

blehbelheblehbelehbbleh

puipuix

2008-10-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

sigh. i guess its ending......

maybe, im ending........

2008-10-07T13:24:00.002+08:00

Daily clues on my new ♥

Its quite impossible to date her out ,how many times i tried=.=

She nvr thought of me liking her. And i hope it would be like this.

...I dont want her to think too much

and obviously, she doesnt seem to have any motives.

I dont know how to get her heart, coz she already got other ppl more important to her.

I was once afraid i would love her....and now it really happened

Can she sew back my broken heart??

2008-10-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

Daily clues on my new lover
I trust her so much and she's the only one i share my feelings with.

I once had infatuation over her for a week, last year o.o

She can be solved by my morse code?

Her words reassure me. I'm very grateful of that

I have some 好感about her

And hopefully, i want her to love me too ;(

She's obviously taller then my previous lover

And im getting Emo-er and emo-er day by day

That's life without love~yea

2008-09-16T22:59:00.003+08:00

Unexpected things happen lately

Trying to eat ice cream is difficult

I feel so numb......

and im not ready for another one....

Try to eat the ice cream im not supposed to eat?

Im just not ready...Im just not ready...Im just not ready...Im just not ready...Im just not ready...

2008-09-13T22:07:00.003+08:00

I dont know how to memorise my new drum song, The Reason =.=

why do i wanna blog now o.o ?!hmmmmmmmmms

Nothing to blog about lehs.....

Geraldine sent this 2pid quiz

1) Your relationship with him/her is:Friend

2) Your five impression of him/her:Nice,guai,pure,friendly,silly,random

3) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: My birthday present ;D
4) The most memorable thing he had said to you:Hi James! Bye James~!

5) If he/she becomes ur lover you will: Love her lo..duh=.=

6) If he/she becomes your lover the thing he have to improve on will be: Er. Don't make me think too much

7) If he becomes your enemy you will: Make her my friend back

8) If he/she becomes your enemy the reason will be: No reason.She's too nice =.=

9) The most desired thing you wanna do for him or her now is: Kiss~~~fake...hear her sing and play piano

10) Your overall impression of him/her is: Geraldine sux xD!

11) How do you think ppl around you will feel about you? Yao Ming thinks that i like her ? o.O

12) The characters tt you like about yourself: Funny?

13) On the contrary the characters you hate about yourself: Think too much and emo

14) The most ideal person i wanna be is: JayChou

15) For ppl who care n likes you, you wanna say: Fuck

Pass this quiz to ten ppl tt you wish to noe how they feel about you.[random order]

1) Esaint

2) Cheryl

3) Geraldine

4)Guan Ru

5) Valerie

6) Lewis

7) Nicole

8) Denise

9) Lennon

10) Kelvin

16) Is no.6 in relationship? YESSS

17) Is no.9 a female or male? Elf, male

18) If no.7 & 10 were together, isit a gd thing? Yes! Coz they are siblings ! xD

19) What is no.2 studying about? Hahah! i Dont know

20) When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Juz an hour ago

21) What kind of music does no.8 like?Chinese i think

22) Does no.1 have any siblings? YA

23) Would u woo no.3? Oh my gawd..maybe ? I'm not up to anything for now =.=

24) How about no.7? No

25) Is no.4 single? YA

26) What is the surname of no.5? Fool

28) Does no.5 & 9 get along well? They are ok, classmates and same CCA

29) Where does no.2 study at? PHS

30) Talk something random about no.1. He talks about random shit

31) Have u tried developing feelings for no.8? O_O ahahhahahah!i would rather develop feelings for no.1 LOL

32) Where does no.9 lives at? Singapore

33) What colour does no.4 like?Black?

34) Are no.5 n 1 besties? NO! It'll be a torture for 5 !

35) Does no.7 like no.2? Thats les !

36) How did u got to noe no.2? She got to noe me by MSN=.=

37) Does no.1 have any pets?His little Peter

38) Is no.7 the sexiest being in the world? Then the world's so pathetic=.=

OOPS! SRY NICOLE! UR THE SEXIEST IN THE WORLD!

2008-09-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

Sat
I nth to do, actually plan to walk out alone. Coz geraldine's phone drop in toilet bowl ?

Crazy der hahaz..

Anyhow msg lor..then found cheryl.. Hah! Far East Mall sux alot~ I meet up late for the movie,
"Boys over Flowers" the Meteor Gardens become the movie,,wahaha very funny and adventurous.. ok ok la 3/5 points

Got L'arc~en~ciel's AWAKE and TRUE albums from HMV..YEAAAA SO COOL, GOT GAZETTE AND DIR EN GREY......OTSUKA AI,MIHIMARU GT,EPIK HIGH~

Actually wanted to buy the $31 "The Marrow Of the Bone Album"

The price verii scarry de wors.xP

Tues
I thought today will start right, but first day already my hair is caught ...its actually so obvious la =.=

Damn Mr Lim, I have been thinking of Guan Ru's idea of riding motorbikes into the school and chopping Mr Tan and him...wahahah

The more i think of it, the more im becoming bloodthirsty

So funny.. xP

At com lab i was so so very very bored lors...x(

Nobody talking to me de...O_O

haha .....toook a "funnny" picc of myself

I dont relli take pics of myself but this photo is lucky..i'm random phototaker~

NEH HEH HEH~!

If u di-siao me.......................

I

WILL

KISS

YOU

Muaaaaaaa~<3>
I am MAD ^ ^

2008-09-06T14:29:00.002+08:00

im pretty sad today

Almost everyday too

Im sad over little things....

Coz i cant find love

Which makes me find no point in life........

2008-09-01T00:54:00.002+08:00

co'mon...fine..i will update, even though nobody reads this pathetic blog.

HAHA! thats a good one , im talking to myself !

Here i am, trying to make my blog look really perfect, but nobody just acknowledges it...What a pity !

Can u live in a world without love...........?

I know. I had to do this.....to give up everything...

It's for good....i guess.

She's just too much ._.

Too many things to talk about...especially things that are occurring around me...

Friends? Erm.. what else......=,=

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA................................ITS STUFFY AT HOME........

ITS........HOME ALONE........PART 2

yea, its for a week with $500

wat should i do....heh heh hehx... ;)

I like singing the high pitch of Conceived sorrow ...and Mushi

Maybe im in love right now..........lol

I know i cant........shall force myself not to...hahhahahhaaha...

Hope i get tags for this post................x(

I love you guys........ ;)

2008-08-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

Guan ru's birthday. We are gonna celebrate tomorrow..

Fcking day la..failed chem and English...ashamed to announce marks.......haiz no hope ler lar ! Fck !!

I bet if i score well in EOY wont even make it lor.

Sum1 encourage to hand in all my works!!!

And what the @$@!!#%! juz got so many things to do...AAARGH

im going shopiing soonn....juz finding ppl who have $$ and noes where to bring me...and dun have the "no feeel" kinda ppl

pei wo goo out also can ma.

Pls la.....i feel pathetic coz no1 love me lor......

I juz love the girl who's so sweet ...and got hot lips !! lol

I dont know what to do with my current love now....coz sure cant de la

muuuacks....i wan kisses from euu

Lolz....

2008-08-10T01:26:00.004+08:00

celebrated my birthday together with guan ru, lewis, ting hui and lai min. Or were they juz celebrating National daY? i dont know...

I didnt relli expect anything....but maybe today i made others happy...

Im already very contented to make ppl happy during my birthday

And my friends were there to keep me companied... ;)

So....i've turned 15 ,about 2 hours ago...

It was the best birthday I've ever had....

Hhahaha...ting hui and lai min were juz too annoyed following us around...

Had a late lunch at burger king..before that we dont know wat to do...

went E2 hub..the poking mob dota game was juz so funny..played abit of cs and audi too...

Felt sorry..coz had no choice...ting hui and lai min walked around? watched us play? and used my msn =.=" ...and my handphone =.=""

Went to city hall after that...found Sayang..and i actually didnt noe wat we were doing there..

Went to YCK then....lewis and guan ru wanna find Ritz , Migaa and company.

I also go sch for fun...wear the red plastic "super-man" raincoat~

Sat awhile with them....

Looked at her....

Talked to her...

Until we left.....it was 12 30 ++

N i relli did say a "byebye" to them in the taxi....she dao-ed me accidentally i think

Im happy... I've did all i can for my birthday.....but

.............................deep in my heart its pain.

祝

我

15

大

壽

I dun relli like celebrating my birthday with other countries...>.<